Wow, been a while hasn’t it? For some time my creative energy was quite low and I was struggling to get much work done. Good news is I’ve recently started to get my motivation back! The bad news is, however, that’s because I’m putting my Trickster project on hiatus, possibly permanently. Quitting on a project I’ve spent so much time on isn’t exactly a pleasant decision but it’s one I had to make.
I’m writing this quick post because I discovered something today and had to share it. Talking about my ADD and the issues I’ve had with it was always part of my plan for this blog, and will go into more detail later. But I just had to say something because Proteus helped me with something I’ve been struggling with for quite a while now, it managed to shut-up my mind. I am basically always thinking, unless a task is taking up all my mental processes thoughts and ideas are basically always bouncing around. While this can quite useful for creativity, problem solving, and sometimes learning, I don’t have the best control over it. Sometimes irrelevant ideas are stuck in my head, my thoughts don’t always go in the direction I want, and IT DOESN’T STOP! My brain can scream thoughts and without the ability to shut my mind down negative thoughts can consume me if they start and I can have severe problems getting to sleep. Simple meditation doesn’t reliably work. To control thoughts I’ve created rituals, drove, yoga, hard exercise, and, I’m embarrassed to say, drank. But I can’t always do these, they only help some, or have other problems.
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